update status...

i nearly forget come for blogging recently..
until my friend reminded me to read her blog><
hmm.. let me think of it..
what's d thing i do recently??
shopping?? 'a little bit' facebook?? "long gai"?? sleeping?? chatting??
ahh, me myself also dont know.. :p
i am damn crazy for my facebook game ><
cafe world, farmVillle, Happy Aquarium, Roller Coaster Kingdom, Country Story, Barn Buddy, Love Farm, Farm Town, "ai gou", Plock, What to Wear..
woah!!
i can spend my time with these games whole day..
anyway, i need 2 "complete" my task in facebook now!!
hope i will come 2 blog frequently? XD

how come??

today, after i finish my final exam..
i rushed back from my college to home..
for what??
for sure is take the aeroplane back to hometown due to hari raya season..
i am going to celebrate hari raya puasa?
lolxx..
yea, my parents' shops do.. haha..
i am rushing back to help my parents in their shop T.T
i am kinda tired due to the exam.. but i am forced to go back at night T.T
WHO KNOWS??
actually, my flight is 2025, but it delayed until 2300..
the flight will take me 2.5 hrs to kk..
it means i will reach KKIA at 0130.. T.T
SHIT!!
i am kinda tired.. i need 2 go back home to rest la.. Gosh!!
i still need to work in the shop tomorrow morning!
TIRED!! only this world can describe me me now..
GOD, i hope the flight wont be delayed anymore.. Please!!
AMEN..

幸福~~

幸福可以垂手可得的吗??
有时, 想一想周边的人, 他们看起来好幸福喔!
越想就会越想到自己, 为何我不是处在那充满幸福扬溢的气氛里头?
再想一想, 酱那些生活在战争里的小孩, 没得吃, 没得喝, 活在担惊受怕的日子里.....
"幸福"这两个字眼根本就不存在在他们的字典里头...
人们那贪婪的心几时才能反省呢??
别只顾着自己而把那些值得我们帮助的人们抛在脑后...

*本来..
我只想写一写, 最近我所看到在别人身上的"幸福"...
写写下, 就发觉到其实, 世界上还有更多人比我更需要幸福!! =)

i need caring..

fell down again..
this time my foot really terseliuh ad..
bengkak again..

what i need is caring..
i didnt feel any cares even when i am sick..
what are friends? brothers? sisters?
seems like no one in this world can cares for me..
in my situation now, i really hope someone can bring me go "tek da"..
but no one can accompany me..
why the world is like this??
human are not living in group but living individually..

even..
my past relationship thing..
i fly over here and let them bully me??
"tam" back me then throw me away again??
MEANS WHAT??
UNFAIR world!!
why some ppl still can stay with their couple or the person they like happily..
but not me??

forgive those who rejected you..

forgive those who rejected you..
after i attended the church service tonight, rev. David Kim told us..
while i heard this, my tears straightly drop down for a few milliseconds.. :p
because i call him as an irresponsible idiot in church when i think of him today :p

Rev. David preached the topic Grace for Breaking Slavery of Sin today..
why do people sin?
Adam's sin brought an extension curse on the earth..
Because of this curse, life is painful..
poverty and natural disasters occur..
relationships suffer conflicts, hurts, and divisions..

what the sad relationship is..
sad thing..
sad love..
but everyone still need LOVE in this word..
no matter what relationship it is..
family, lover, friends, classmate, coursemate and etc..

anyway, my housemate also told me not to hate him no matter how he hurts me..
yes, i did it..
i don't want to hate anyone else..
but i cannot control the one who hate me..
i let those people to God..
God, my lovely heavenly father will help me to throw away the burden that i carried..
anyway, thank God..

for sure, God will help me to settle my relationship thing..
God, you are my way..
because i know you are my beginning and my forever..
i love you.. God..

safety first..

i went to guardian to buy some stuff just now..
when i reach the thing i want, a malay man came forward and talked to me..
he was holding a hair gel in his hand..
then he said, oh, u bukan kerja kat sini??
hey!! of course no la..
i am wearing casual and taking a bag and a file with me..
blind also know i am not the staff there la..

maybe i am too kind??
then i asked, u nak check price ya?
he replied, ya..
then i showed him the machine that checking the price by scanning the barcode..
he scanned and scanned..
still cannot scanned the price of that hair gel..
then i try to help him, but it did not work also.. =.="

at last, he asked me, u tau mana taman bunga raya? i am from Klang, i nak hantar document..
i dah janji nak jumpa orang tu 6.15 tapi sekarang dah pukul 7 lebih..
it's the housing area opposite of my college, i replied..
then he asked me to show the way..
as he wished, i wanna try to show the way by showing the direction by words..
but..
he keep saying that i am from klang, tulah i tak tau tempat..
then, he asked me to take his car and show him the way..
he said just show him the way, then he will drop me at desa again.. =.=
i felt like something going wrong, as we are living in this unsafe society.. ><
i refused him..
i said, i will show you the place from lrt station..
and, i will having discussion with my friends..
he keep telling me that he didn't know where is the place..
as he told me, he already find the place for about an hour plus..
if he really did that, sure he knows the lrt station la..
and it's very near to guardian pharmacy.. =.="

for sure, i am scare to take his car..
i quickly get my thing and pay at the counter and walk home.. ><

actually what do i want?

asking myself what do i need?

ouch!! still cant release him?
i called him just now, asking him something..
that girl answered the call..
what i feel is just like..
heart pain? indeed!!

as i know, they are not couple now ba?
but..
that girl talk like she is the one..
somemore..
she asked me, you(means me) not saying that after break up, then you will not contact him anymore ma??
walao!! what she said is something that i never talk before..
then she asked again, you still like him ar??
wow, i m thinking like, who are you oo?? ask such stupid question!!

i really cannot tahan that girl already..
every time she talk to me sounds like very rude..
seems like i did something wrong to her..
one question i need to ask her, who is that 狐狸精??
she ever use "狐狸精" to say me.. walao!!
who is the one wor??
i never hate her before, but she hates me!!
because of her, we break up..
who's fault now wor??
hope she will not make me to hate her..

somebody asking me that, actually does that girl still liking/loving him?
she analyze that actually..
1. maybe she is not really loving him now
2. when she knew that he got another girl friend, she cannot tahan, because she don't have the one..
3. then, she will try to rob him from his new girl friend to show that she is still charming.. and she wins the game..

but..

what i can say here is..
if he really loving his new girl friend, he should not/ will not contact/ hear what is that girl saying..

how come there is a sad story in my life?
as i know and i heard, girls hurt more in relationship after they break up..
but..
guys can put down easier..
unfair condition!!

did u know who are you??

I KNOW WHO I AM

1. I am God's child
2. I am Christ's friend
3. I am united with the Lord
4. I am bought with a price
5. I am a saint(set apart for God)
6. I am a personal witness of Christ
7. I am the salt and light of the earth
8. I am a member of the body of Christ
9. I am free forever from condemnation
10. I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant
11. I am free from any charge against me
12. I am a minister of reconciliation for God
13. I have access to God through the Holy Spirit
14. I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms
15. I cannot be separated from the love of God
16. I am established, anointed, sealed by God
17. I am assured all things work together for good
18. I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit
19. I may approach God with freedom and confidence
20. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
21. I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life
22. I am God's temple. I can complete in Christ
23. I am hidden with Christ in God. I have been justified
24. I am God's co-worker. I am God's workmanship
25. I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfect
26. I have been redeemed and forgiven. I have been adopted as God's child

I BELONG TO GOD!! =)

am i looking older and older?? ><

while i am looking at my own photo, i found that i am looking older..
why i say so??
please read forward.. =(

i am only 20..
of course i am still a student in this age..

BUT..

when i meet my church member, they often ask me, you are now working??
arghh!! what the??!!
AGAIN,
i went to see doctor last few days..
i asked for mc because i was going to absent to class whole day..
then, she asked me, where are you working at?
OMG!! my face really looking OLD??

why?? why?? why???

as i know, i often crying since chinese new year 2009..
i cried everyday for whole 3 months because of someone hurting me much..
until now, i am still crying sometimes..
am i a girl that likes to cry?? 爱哭包??
or i never have been hurt so much before??
i already found that, the end part of my eyelid began to 'drop'.. (not really know how to explain in words..)
is that one of the reason that make me look older?
i still remembered, my mum told me, my face color(direct translate from mandarin)=.=" look bad..
is that again one of the reason that make me look older?

status: recovering != recovering

wow, about 20 days no blogging already!!

what i am doing recently?
haha..
sure i will reply, i am busy doing assignment, mid-term test, and of course....... playing game XD

status: single
single? again??
actually, i never hope my "latest" story ends like this :(
but what can i do?
he hurts me a lot..
do i still need to make myself "down"?
no choice..
i made a decision.. BREAK UP!!
break up != i not love him anymore..
i cannot lie anybody including me that i am still loving him..
as my personal message in my msn stated that..
或许我真的爱上了一个不该爱的人, 但我能怎样呢? 时间啊, 我能对你期待些什么吗?
again, i still need 2 meet him every weekdays..
indeed a sad story.. =(

he is really my 1st love..
i often heard people saying that it's quite hard for us to forget our 1st love..
why??
because he is my first one i falling in love to?
because he is my first one that let me experience the sweet sweet memory?
because he is my first one to do everything first time.. ( don't think the another way round ya!!)

as i read back something that related to him,
my tears will still dropping down..
what i can say here is, actually i don't want all my emotions are controlled by him!!

well, nobody is going to believe he is my 1st love..
am i looking like somebody that already in love/ paktor many time?? lol

write so much thing also no use one la..
everything will be a past..
status NOW: single and maybe still loving him?
status in the future (i don't know when is it, hope it can be asap): single/ in a relationship, sucessful woman?? haha..

GOD, now, i really need 2 say, i NEED you thirstily!!
we, as a human, always ask God for help when we are in trouble..
as we know, God loves us!!
yea, he loves us that no one could ever compare..
even he knows the numbers of our uncountable hairs!!
but.. one sad thing..
what did we do for him??
we did nothing..
but we keep hurting him..
we find him only when we are in trouble, forget him when we gain our happiness..
we are not trusting him that he can help us to solve everything..
we find the another solutions instead of our heavenly father..

i never feel what God feel before this..
until i hurted by someone..
of course we hurt God more than i hurted by someone else..

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p.s != can be defined as "doesn't means"/ "not equal to"
p.s asap = as soon as possible

The sexiest birthday party ever before~

yam ice-cream cake with candle "hiding" in cake.. birthday girl need 2 take it out with her mouth ><
birthday girl after taking out candle with her mouth ^^
me with birthday girl ^^

wuhoo..
my housemate birthday at 25th June..
before these photos were taken, she was just finish taken her bath..
because of privacy, i can't post her "private" photo here..
haha!!
just joking ><

actually, i nearly forgot her birthdate..
haha!!
luckily my housemate, Jasmine reminded me..
we rushed down to desa at 10pm something and buy the cake for our birthday girl ^^

i am very happy because the happiness of our birthday girl ^^

最幸福的事..

是否曾经想过最幸福的事是啥呢?
我曾经想过..
是否与陪伴你经历所有酸甜苦辣的一生, 不离不弃的老伴一起手牵着手到公园散步, 手牵着手一起去吃早点是件即甜蜜又幸福的事呢?
可能那就是人生中其中一件幸福的事吧!
哈哈!!

busy recently??

long time didn't write my blog already..
i am really "busy" recently..
busy for what??
busy for school?
busy for dating?
busy for doing nothing?
actually i also don't know.. =.="
maybe my time table is quite pack..
my class from morning until night..
especially wed and thur..
i always feel tired after class everyday even though my class is just until 1pm on tue..
i really not enough rest..

ADIS that subject..
tutorial so hard..
case study need 2 pass up every week..
i really don't know how 2 manage this subject.. haiz..

14 weeks for this semester oo..
how am i going 2 live??
really need God strengthen me this time..
may God bless me, dear, my classmate and my coursemate oo.. =)

well~ whatever~

well~
i discover that many friends around me are having their good relationship with their partner..
love relationship with their another one...
when i thought of this, i ask myself..
how come i cannot have such blessing??
i think i get my answer now..
actually, cannot say i didn't get any blessing for finding the love of my life..
i am sure that God had already arrange someone special for me..
maybe i am also not mature to have a boy friend now..

anyway, my housemate did give me a reference link about love..
http://www.worldharvest.org.my/Pastoral_References.htm
i was referred to the title "Finding The Love of Your Life"..
it was written by my lovely pastor in my church..
it did give me some support and idea about love..

a child thinking... I LOV3 U??

my cousin and me :)

yeah.. this is my 7 years old cousin..

my sis told me that he wrote a love letter to a girl XD
he wrote 我爱你!! haha!!!
he still didnt know hw 2 write '爱' that time..
then he asked my sis hw 2 write that word.. lolx..
what suprised me was that girl replied 我也爱你!!
the children nowadays really watch too much movie.. lolx..

i asked him..
then u got girl friend now??
then he said no.. haha..
show me red face somemore.. haha..

LOv3

骑单车拍婚纱照，很浪漫！

曾经有一本杂志说, 爱是啥? 这问题需要问你自己...
我不太明白他所说的, 但是他所表达的应该是不同的人对'爱'着个词抱着不同的看法...

最近, 身边的朋友甚至我的妹妹都堕入爱河...
总感觉到甜甜蜜蜜的气氛在每一口我呼吸的空气中...
有些朋友还与已分手的情人重拾绵绵不断的爱情...

有个朋友与分手一年多的旧情人在回一起...
她还宣告她即将与她的他结为夫妻...
当我从她口中听到这个"震憾"的消息, 我还以为她在跟我说笑呢!
我还陪她去婚纱店...

看着一对对即将成为夫妻的恋人甜蜜的婚纱照, 心里涌着幸福的感觉...
好像也盼望自己那幸福的一刻快点到来...
渴望那所谓的幸福围绕着我...

还是要给一些老掉牙的祝福语...
朋友, 祝:新婚快乐, 永结同心

i m back in Sibu- my origin hometown.. haha..

7th- i reach Sibu, a small town..
after i reach home, i discover that my luggage had cut by somebody..
maybe the staff in airport did it..
luckily there's nothing missing..
when i reach home, my house stop supplying electricity for 3 times.. oh my Gosh!!
again, Sibu is a small town.. nowhere 2 play.. less entertainment..
the biggest shopping mall is really really small to me..
but..
there's something attract me here..
absolutely is FOOD!! haha!!
i miss the food here so much..
the food here is delicious for me..
maybe i grew up here..
i ad "biasa" the taste of food there..

last few days..
i played badminton with my sister..
i wearing slippers that time..
i thought it's safe!!
who knows?!
i stepped on a small stone..
i fall down!! again!!
ouch!! again!! right knee... blue black again..
last month, right knee blue black because i fall down in wash room..
what the..

yesterday..
a glass plate fall to the floor after i washed some plates.. the plate broke =( my sister favourite plate =( sorry!!
my foot cut by the glasses again..
haiz!!

i always careless like this..
haiz..
maybe i need someone 2 take care of me so that i wont injured always because of my careless..
haha!!

back to kl after trip

Kedah, Perlis, Pulau Langkawi, Penang

i walked to these state in 1 week time..
wow, tired..
come back kl online to write the blog XD
because cannot online in my sibu hometown =.="

Kedah-Perlis
Alor Setar Tower
- ticket price RM6
-19th tallest communication tower, 2nd tallest in Malaysia
-take the lift up to the tower to enjoy the view in Alor Setar

Gua Kelam
-walking on the "hanging bridge" in the cave - a different experience that i ever try before
-enjoy the natural view inside the park








Muzium Padi

-viewing nice drawing about the kampung life in padi farm on the rotated stage automatic


-viewing the tools used in padi farm


-kampung girl and kampung boy

Lye Huat Garden

ahhh!! fong is going 2 push me into the kolam=.="


-man-made garden

-viewing the beautiful creation made by stone
-some small animals inside

see fong's face XD

Taman Ular
-heard of the name, sure u can know what is inside the park
-there are many kind of snakes inside the park absolutely
-Specimens is viewed


Pulau Langkawi
Bird Paradise

-feeding the monkey, it can open 'guaji' itself GENG!!
feeding rabbit.. cute!!

Shin Mi(Yun Jia's cousin working place-a seafood restaurant)

haha... i scare 2 hold the "dragon prawn".. fong hold.. i quickly go there and take the photo with her..

Underwaterworld, Langkawi

fish? yea!! God creates us such an amazing pretty fish!! wow!!

i don't know what's that thing call, but i touched it's body.. smooth..

starfish? i touched it!! the body quite hard..

in 3D theater.. 3D spec..

at outside.. see humor fong's face.. lolx..

Penang
*no photo viewed =( i not yet get the photo from yunjia

we met our coursemate+friend in Penang..
he did bring us everywhere in Penang..
he help us to arrange a condo for us..
RM88.. a room, a living room, 1 kitchen, 2 wash room.. in Sri Sayang, Batu Feringgi..
thank you for bringing us, Alvin =)

we did went to snake temple..
i fear of the snake.. haha.. so.. i did not go in the temple.. stay outside =(

we climb to the highest place of 1 of d building in the Kek Lo Si Temple..
Alvin scare the height there.. lolx..
脚软somemore.. haha!!
we took the photo there.. red, yellow, blue, green.. (i will show the photo later)

eat eat eat..
sure..
go penang sure eat eat eat..
小食天堂.. yea yea!! that's Penang..
the most famous food>>> penang char kuey tiao.. must eat..

we did visit flag mountain also..
we took the small train to the top of mountain..
RM4 two ways..
nice view there.. can view some part of Penang there..
thanks God again for create us natural and nice view to see..
again, Alvin 脚软!! haha!!

9.5 hours

wow!! 9.5 hours from KL to Kodiang, Kedah.. At first, i told by my friend 8 hours to Kedah.. so, i bought ifeel magazine to read in the bus.. who knows?? the bus engine or somewhere gt problem.. we stop at the stesen berehat, around Taiping area around 2.5 hrs.. we wasted a lot of time there.. we didn't know what to do there.. sleep and read magazine and also toilet time.. such a boring time.. then here come a double decker from their company.. it's my 1st time to take double decker too.. hehe.. we take the opportunity to sit at the "1st floor" of the bus.. i wonder hw's the double decker look like XD (shhh... a bit look like kampung girl.. i mention again, just a bit bit XD).. anyway, i come to a small town.. hope 2 enjoy here.. :)

my holiday

i thought i will be very bored in my this holiday before this.. who knows? I am damn tired in this holiday..

my friend, Terry came KL from my hometown.. she came here with her relatives and of course with her bf =) her relationship with her bf seems like not very close.. but that guy is really quite a good guy.. care about her.. accompany her until she sleep in the hotel(genting highlands theme park) room alone =) he knows my friend scare to sleep alone, as the others went to casino XD quite high salary to spend in my hometown.. but his look is okok.. haha.. really hope my friend wont create a sad story 2 him.. hehe..

my course organized a trip to genting highlands at 27th Apr.. 2days 1 night.. but.. i am getting sick now.. no choice.. i need 2 rest at home.. but.. i heard my friend says the some of the games in the theme park are under maintenance.. sad.. =( hope they are happy to celebrate Sharon's birthday there.. XD

i still need 2 go my friend's hometown, Kedah on coming Wed.. i bought the bus ticket.. no choice again.. need 2 go.. i think it's better for me 2 relax.. walk walk around.. maybe my sickness can recover.. haha.. really hope i can enjoy myself and may God bless our friendship.. may God heal my sickness many many.. XD