am i looking older and older?? ><

while i am looking at my own photo, i found that i am looking older..
why i say so??
please read forward.. =(

i am only 20..
of course i am still a student in this age..

BUT..

when i meet my church member, they often ask me, you are now working??
arghh!! what the??!!
AGAIN,
i went to see doctor last few days..
i asked for mc because i was going to absent to class whole day..
then, she asked me, where are you working at?
OMG!! my face really looking OLD??

why?? why?? why???

as i know, i often crying since chinese new year 2009..
i cried everyday for whole 3 months because of someone hurting me much..
until now, i am still crying sometimes..
am i a girl that likes to cry?? 爱哭包??
or i never have been hurt so much before??
i already found that, the end part of my eyelid began to 'drop'.. (not really know how to explain in words..)
is that one of the reason that make me look older?
i still remembered, my mum told me, my face color(direct translate from mandarin)=.=" look bad..
is that again one of the reason that make me look older?