forgive those who rejected you..

forgive those who rejected you..
after i attended the church service tonight, rev. David Kim told us..
while i heard this, my tears straightly drop down for a few milliseconds.. :p
because i call him as an irresponsible idiot in church when i think of him today :p

Rev. David preached the topic Grace for Breaking Slavery of Sin today..
why do people sin?
Adam's sin brought an extension curse on the earth..
Because of this curse, life is painful..
poverty and natural disasters occur..
relationships suffer conflicts, hurts, and divisions..

what the sad relationship is..
sad thing..
sad love..
but everyone still need LOVE in this word..
no matter what relationship it is..
family, lover, friends, classmate, coursemate and etc..

anyway, my housemate also told me not to hate him no matter how he hurts me..
yes, i did it..
i don't want to hate anyone else..
but i cannot control the one who hate me..
i let those people to God..
God, my lovely heavenly father will help me to throw away the burden that i carried..
anyway, thank God..

for sure, God will help me to settle my relationship thing..
God, you are my way..
because i know you are my beginning and my forever..
i love you.. God..

safety first..

i went to guardian to buy some stuff just now..
when i reach the thing i want, a malay man came forward and talked to me..
he was holding a hair gel in his hand..
then he said, oh, u bukan kerja kat sini??
hey!! of course no la..
i am wearing casual and taking a bag and a file with me..
blind also know i am not the staff there la..

maybe i am too kind??
then i asked, u nak check price ya?
he replied, ya..
then i showed him the machine that checking the price by scanning the barcode..
he scanned and scanned..
still cannot scanned the price of that hair gel..
then i try to help him, but it did not work also.. =.="

at last, he asked me, u tau mana taman bunga raya? i am from Klang, i nak hantar document..
i dah janji nak jumpa orang tu 6.15 tapi sekarang dah pukul 7 lebih..
it's the housing area opposite of my college, i replied..
then he asked me to show the way..
as he wished, i wanna try to show the way by showing the direction by words..
but..
he keep saying that i am from klang, tulah i tak tau tempat..
then, he asked me to take his car and show him the way..
he said just show him the way, then he will drop me at desa again.. =.=
i felt like something going wrong, as we are living in this unsafe society.. ><
i refused him..
i said, i will show you the place from lrt station..
and, i will having discussion with my friends..
he keep telling me that he didn't know where is the place..
as he told me, he already find the place for about an hour plus..
if he really did that, sure he knows the lrt station la..
and it's very near to guardian pharmacy.. =.="

for sure, i am scare to take his car..
i quickly get my thing and pay at the counter and walk home.. ><

actually what do i want?

asking myself what do i need?

ouch!! still cant release him?
i called him just now, asking him something..
that girl answered the call..
what i feel is just like..
heart pain? indeed!!

as i know, they are not couple now ba?
but..
that girl talk like she is the one..
somemore..
she asked me, you(means me) not saying that after break up, then you will not contact him anymore ma??
walao!! what she said is something that i never talk before..
then she asked again, you still like him ar??
wow, i m thinking like, who are you oo?? ask such stupid question!!

i really cannot tahan that girl already..
every time she talk to me sounds like very rude..
seems like i did something wrong to her..
one question i need to ask her, who is that 狐狸精??
she ever use "狐狸精" to say me.. walao!!
who is the one wor??
i never hate her before, but she hates me!!
because of her, we break up..
who's fault now wor??
hope she will not make me to hate her..

somebody asking me that, actually does that girl still liking/loving him?
she analyze that actually..
1. maybe she is not really loving him now
2. when she knew that he got another girl friend, she cannot tahan, because she don't have the one..
3. then, she will try to rob him from his new girl friend to show that she is still charming.. and she wins the game..

but..

what i can say here is..
if he really loving his new girl friend, he should not/ will not contact/ hear what is that girl saying..

how come there is a sad story in my life?
as i know and i heard, girls hurt more in relationship after they break up..
but..
guys can put down easier..
unfair condition!!

did u know who are you??

I KNOW WHO I AM

1. I am God's child
2. I am Christ's friend
3. I am united with the Lord
4. I am bought with a price
5. I am a saint(set apart for God)
6. I am a personal witness of Christ
7. I am the salt and light of the earth
8. I am a member of the body of Christ
9. I am free forever from condemnation
10. I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant
11. I am free from any charge against me
12. I am a minister of reconciliation for God
13. I have access to God through the Holy Spirit
14. I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms
15. I cannot be separated from the love of God
16. I am established, anointed, sealed by God
17. I am assured all things work together for good
18. I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit
19. I may approach God with freedom and confidence
20. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
21. I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life
22. I am God's temple. I can complete in Christ
23. I am hidden with Christ in God. I have been justified
24. I am God's co-worker. I am God's workmanship
25. I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfect
26. I have been redeemed and forgiven. I have been adopted as God's child

I BELONG TO GOD!! =)

am i looking older and older?? ><

while i am looking at my own photo, i found that i am looking older..
why i say so??
please read forward.. =(

i am only 20..
of course i am still a student in this age..

BUT..

when i meet my church member, they often ask me, you are now working??
arghh!! what the??!!
AGAIN,
i went to see doctor last few days..
i asked for mc because i was going to absent to class whole day..
then, she asked me, where are you working at?
OMG!! my face really looking OLD??

why?? why?? why???

as i know, i often crying since chinese new year 2009..
i cried everyday for whole 3 months because of someone hurting me much..
until now, i am still crying sometimes..
am i a girl that likes to cry?? 爱哭包??
or i never have been hurt so much before??
i already found that, the end part of my eyelid began to 'drop'.. (not really know how to explain in words..)
is that one of the reason that make me look older?
i still remembered, my mum told me, my face color(direct translate from mandarin)=.=" look bad..
is that again one of the reason that make me look older?

status: recovering != recovering

wow, about 20 days no blogging already!!

what i am doing recently?
haha..
sure i will reply, i am busy doing assignment, mid-term test, and of course....... playing game XD

status: single
single? again??
actually, i never hope my "latest" story ends like this :(
but what can i do?
he hurts me a lot..
do i still need to make myself "down"?
no choice..
i made a decision.. BREAK UP!!
break up != i not love him anymore..
i cannot lie anybody including me that i am still loving him..
as my personal message in my msn stated that..
或许我真的爱上了一个不该爱的人, 但我能怎样呢? 时间啊, 我能对你期待些什么吗?
again, i still need 2 meet him every weekdays..
indeed a sad story.. =(

he is really my 1st love..
i often heard people saying that it's quite hard for us to forget our 1st love..
why??
because he is my first one i falling in love to?
because he is my first one that let me experience the sweet sweet memory?
because he is my first one to do everything first time.. ( don't think the another way round ya!!)

as i read back something that related to him,
my tears will still dropping down..
what i can say here is, actually i don't want all my emotions are controlled by him!!

well, nobody is going to believe he is my 1st love..
am i looking like somebody that already in love/ paktor many time?? lol

write so much thing also no use one la..
everything will be a past..
status NOW: single and maybe still loving him?
status in the future (i don't know when is it, hope it can be asap): single/ in a relationship, sucessful woman?? haha..

GOD, now, i really need 2 say, i NEED you thirstily!!
we, as a human, always ask God for help when we are in trouble..
as we know, God loves us!!
yea, he loves us that no one could ever compare..
even he knows the numbers of our uncountable hairs!!
but.. one sad thing..
what did we do for him??
we did nothing..
but we keep hurting him..
we find him only when we are in trouble, forget him when we gain our happiness..
we are not trusting him that he can help us to solve everything..
we find the another solutions instead of our heavenly father..

i never feel what God feel before this..
until i hurted by someone..
of course we hurt God more than i hurted by someone else..

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p.s != can be defined as "doesn't means"/ "not equal to"
p.s asap = as soon as possible