i need caring..

fell down again..
this time my foot really terseliuh ad..
bengkak again..

what i need is caring..
i didnt feel any cares even when i am sick..
what are friends? brothers? sisters?
seems like no one in this world can cares for me..
in my situation now, i really hope someone can bring me go "tek da"..
but no one can accompany me..
why the world is like this??
human are not living in group but living individually..

even..
my past relationship thing..
i fly over here and let them bully me??
"tam" back me then throw me away again??
MEANS WHAT??
UNFAIR world!!
why some ppl still can stay with their couple or the person they like happily..
but not me??

forgive those who rejected you..

forgive those who rejected you..
after i attended the church service tonight, rev. David Kim told us..
while i heard this, my tears straightly drop down for a few milliseconds.. :p
because i call him as an irresponsible idiot in church when i think of him today :p

Rev. David preached the topic Grace for Breaking Slavery of Sin today..
why do people sin?
Adam's sin brought an extension curse on the earth..
Because of this curse, life is painful..
poverty and natural disasters occur..
relationships suffer conflicts, hurts, and divisions..

what the sad relationship is..
sad thing..
sad love..
but everyone still need LOVE in this word..
no matter what relationship it is..
family, lover, friends, classmate, coursemate and etc..

anyway, my housemate also told me not to hate him no matter how he hurts me..
yes, i did it..
i don't want to hate anyone else..
but i cannot control the one who hate me..
i let those people to God..
God, my lovely heavenly father will help me to throw away the burden that i carried..
anyway, thank God..

for sure, God will help me to settle my relationship thing..
God, you are my way..
because i know you are my beginning and my forever..
i love you.. God..

safety first..

i went to guardian to buy some stuff just now..
when i reach the thing i want, a malay man came forward and talked to me..
he was holding a hair gel in his hand..
then he said, oh, u bukan kerja kat sini??
hey!! of course no la..
i am wearing casual and taking a bag and a file with me..
blind also know i am not the staff there la..

maybe i am too kind??
then i asked, u nak check price ya?
he replied, ya..
then i showed him the machine that checking the price by scanning the barcode..
he scanned and scanned..
still cannot scanned the price of that hair gel..
then i try to help him, but it did not work also.. =.="

at last, he asked me, u tau mana taman bunga raya? i am from Klang, i nak hantar document..
i dah janji nak jumpa orang tu 6.15 tapi sekarang dah pukul 7 lebih..
it's the housing area opposite of my college, i replied..
then he asked me to show the way..
as he wished, i wanna try to show the way by showing the direction by words..
but..
he keep saying that i am from klang, tulah i tak tau tempat..
then, he asked me to take his car and show him the way..
he said just show him the way, then he will drop me at desa again.. =.=
i felt like something going wrong, as we are living in this unsafe society.. ><
i refused him..
i said, i will show you the place from lrt station..
and, i will having discussion with my friends..
he keep telling me that he didn't know where is the place..
as he told me, he already find the place for about an hour plus..
if he really did that, sure he knows the lrt station la..
and it's very near to guardian pharmacy.. =.="

for sure, i am scare to take his car..
i quickly get my thing and pay at the counter and walk home.. ><